Hola

Been so long I didn't wrote here. I miss you, bloggy!

Kalau diliat-liat, pos jaman duluku parah banget alaynya😂. Say sorry for that, I won't replay write those things anymore.

Now, I've been to new me, literally new. I don't know who I am anymore. I've lost of my holy spirit animals to do anything, idk why, jinjja.  I need someone who scold me anytime, to make the old me. Seems like I'd lost those people who accompany me. Sorry kalau grammarku ancur, I don't think about it. I didn't learn English for long time.

Intinya, aku cuma bilang kalau the old me itu udah ilang. Kadang memang kangen suasana dan keadaan dulu, tapi gimana lagi, aku udah terlanjur ngecewain banyak pihak. Aku sayang sama dia, mereka, tapi rasanya kaya aku nggak bisa sama mereka. Jinjja, nan molla. Dan mereka pergi gitu aja.

Penyemangatku satu-satunya sekarang adalah keluarga dan diri sendiri beserta harapan-harapan. But, really, aku gatau sampai kapan aku bisa bertahan dengan penyemangat itu. I need life. Need soul. Need someone. Need animal spirit.

"Jadilah seseorang yang mampu membuat orang lain bangga terhadapmu."

Terngiang oleh bahasa itu, setiap waktu, setiap saat, tapi apa daya ada orang yang tak mampu melaksanakan.  Belum bisa membuat bangga orang lain terhadapmu, maka langkah yang harus pertama diambil adalah mencintai diri sendiri. Buat kamu bangga dengan diri sendiri.

Tapi entah mengapa, susah sekali menerapkan itu.
"be proactive"
so simple, but act harder than word.

Ketika kamu berpikir, tidak ada lagi yang bisa kamu lakukan, maka disaat itulah kamu sudah tidak menghargai dirimu sendiri dengan setinggi-tingginya. Perlu untuk menghargai diri sendiri, tapi bukan egois ataupun terlalu percaya diri. Semua ada batasnya.

Namun, yang lebih susah adalah membangkitkan semangat yang sudah bertahun-tahun padam.

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May I post some pictures? These all my happiness in the past.
enjoy!

Pelangi -HiVi!

Ku ingin cinta hadir untuk selamanya 

Bukan hanya lah untuk sementara

Menyapa dan hilang 

Terbit tenggelam bagai pelangi

Yang indahnya hanya sesaat 

Tuk ku lihat dia mewarnai hari

Tetaplah engkau di sini

 Jangan datang lalu kau pergi

 Jangan anggap hatiku 

Jadi tempat persinggahanmu 

Untuk cinta sesaat
 

Mengapa ku tak bisa jadi 

Cinta yang tak akan pernah terganti  

Cinta yg tak kan terjadi

Lalu mengapa kau masih di sini 

Memperpanjang harapan
 

Tetaplah engkau di sini 

Jangan datang lalu kau pergi 

Jangan anggap hatiku 

Jadi tempat persinggahanmu

Untuk cinta sesaat
 

Kau bagai kata yg terus melaju 

Diluasnya ombak samudera biru

Namun sayangnya kau tak pilih aku 

Jadi pelabuhanmu
 

Tetaplah engkau di sini 

Jangan datang lalu kau pergi 

Jangan anggap hatiku 

Jadi tempat persinggahanmu

 
Bila tak ingin di sini 

Jangan berlalu lalang lagi 

Biarkanlah hatiku 

Mencari cinta sejati 

Wahai cintaku 

Wahai cinta sesaat

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Seems I can't hold it anymore.
My head full with those things but I know the reality won't change.
I don't know whal will the result be of my exam now. So far, I know that there's good thing in the future that I need to fight from now.

Let the support comes in right time, not by hoping, but by the chance.

"Eyes are windows to the soul, and we need to see eye to eye forever."

Happy Birthday, Bi!

Mainstream banget, tapi apa daya, cuma ini yg bisa kulakukan utk sahabat disana. "Selamat ulang tahun Sistaria Isma Syarifah"

Kata yang akan selalu terucap pada setiap org utkmu hari ini, tp intinya, aku ikhlas ngucapin ini. Selamat memasuki kepala 2 tahun ini, lebih dewasa, jangan suka buat kesel orang, jangan keras kepala, jangan semaunya sendiri juga ya.
Teruntuk sahabatku yang dipertemukan semasa putih abu-abu.

Kita ga punya foto terbaru, jd terpaksa ku upload foto-foto lama dengan momen yang berbeda-beda, tujuanku adalah biar kamu inget momen itu 😃 haha aku alay, emang iya.

Selalu kunanti foto terbaru biar bisa ku upload. Bye. Happy birthday. Happy twentyth y.o.

 

Padahal aku pengen upload lainnya, tapi yg bisa cuma yg ini, tunggu next posting aja lah hmm sedih

Inget foto ini? Banget . Inget . Pasti .

Terdalam

Malam ini, saya ingin menulis di blog.
Satu kata.......lelah. Ya, saya lelah, saya muak dengan dengan keadaan sekarang. Multi amanah orang bilang orangnya keren, kuat, dan asumsi-asumsi lainnya, tetapi berbeda sekali dengan apa yang kurasakan. Aku mulai merasakan lelah, jenuh bahkanhampir putusasa dengan segala multi amanah yang saya ini aku rasakan. Imunku mulai menurun, aku merasa kasian dengannya, dia harus berjuang mati-matian menjaga kesehatanku, padahal orangnya sendiri tidak menjaganya dengan baik. Sampai kapan harus begini terus? Dalam hati, setiap saat, aku selalu berkata pada diriku sendiri "sabarlah, tenang, sebentar lagi segalanya akan selesai dan semua berakhir dengan titik, tidak koma lagi, bahkan tak ada alinea baru."

Manusia, utamanya umat Islam (muslimin dan muslimah), tidak boleh putus asa, harus selalu menabung hal positif dengan positive thinking dan bisa menerima keadaan. Aku sempat berpikir bahwa kedua hal itu sangat tipis bedanya dengan keputusasaan. Aku yakin aku bisa melalui hal ini semua dengan senyuman, meski aku harus bertemu batu masalah yang besar. Aku yakin akan ada pelangi dibalik segalanya. Aku yakin bahagia telah menungguku di ujung cerita ini, serta aku yakin kamu ada di titik akhir cerita ini untuk menjemputku dan mengantarku ke dunia fantasi dimana selalu kebahagiaan di dalamnya. Aku menunggu, aku masih menunggu hal itu datang.

Pepatah bilang "Berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian."
Memang benar pepatah itu, orang jaman dahulu memang keren, saya bangga menjadi warga pribumi, mereka loyal, mau diajak susah dahulu, demj bertemu kebahagiaan abadi.

Jember, 2 Oktober 2015

Surfer Girl - SUPA Now, SAVE RHINO!

Surfer Girl - SUPA Now



Save Rhino! You must know that Rhino, especially Javan Rhino, White Rhino is almost rare because hunter seek them. The fact, "cula" Rhino cut by government in one country. So evil!

2 weeks in Tobacco city

You know, tobacco city lies on East Java Province. Yup, Tobacco is the name of one fruit. Can you guess what city is? The city is isolated by Bondowoso, Probolinggo, Situbondo, Lumajang. The code of the police for vehicle is 'P'. Just guess guys.

now let me tell you, this city is my place for several years later, about 5 to 6 years. Now, i am doing my study here, I learn about medicine, human, cadaver, etc. I take Faculty of Medicine here (in Indonesia: Fakultas Kedokteran) in one of public university here.

I love the price of the food near my kost :D the price is so cheap, with 6000 rupiah, you can get food with drink. So cheap, so. Ah, you must know, the weather here is not to cold or hot, so so. This occasion, there is a carnival; big carnival named JFC and JJC. Guess first! This is international event, so much tourist come to my new city to see and join the carnival. The carnival is really really cool!

My first week is fulfilled with so many activities; started from PK2 in my university, I join. Then, healthy walking in my university to close the PK2 moment. The next day, I start my study, yeaaah, this is the one that I always waiting for, I wanna try to be a big student, the real learner.

then my second week, I spend my time with study too; come to class, do the tutorial, skills lab, practice in the lab, etc. Then in the weekend I do the continue of PK2. I do the activity with help from SECABA ( Sekolah Calon Bintara) in my city.

finally, I do really enjoy with my life here. I hope it will be lasting forever till 6 years later; until I get my profess "dr. Aprilia Tiyan Fatmawati". Please all say, aamiin :)

thank you.

WAJAR 12 TAHUN

Hei,

Hari ini, saya ingin menulis isi hati saya. Saya sudah berada pada titik tertinggi di WAJAR 12 tahun (Wajib Belajar), namun saya belum bertindak apapun demi masa depan saya.
UGM, UB, STAN , AIM, Poltekkes sekian daftar nama-nama perguruan yang saya tuju. tetap, yang utama UGM-Pendidikan Dokter. tapi, can I? can I?

Blog, sabar-sabar ya terima curhatanku. Kali ini, laman curhatanku berubah ke kamu blogger. Gusar hati ini memikirkan masa depan. Apapun, your I can is more important than your IQ. :) Kata seniorku gitu, semangat!

Di dunia ini, belahan bagian mana pun, pasti ingin dan berkeinginan hal yang sama denganku: menjadi dokter. Itu cita-cita umum kata orang-orang, tetapi aku yakin pasti dengan usaha, doa, dan cita-cita we can, I can!

I'm All Lips

Welcome grade 12th! :))

Nice to meet you..

This is the first time I write my posting freely, without any theme. :D If you know, I made this blog last year because my teacher asks me to make blog and then we write some posting about theme that has already chosen by my English teacher. Therefore, this is the result! :)

The zenith level

Theme: Becoming a 12 grader

It is not easy to sit on 12th grader. Everyday it looks like scary. For the first, everyone will always happy because their get better level/grade than before. They are proud of them self just because of the grade / level.

Actually, it is not what they think, for example me, I scare when I heard I would be a 12th grader student. I am not ready yet to study hard everyday with Try Out, examination, and other activities. I am afraid if I am not focus on what I have learned. I have to prepare anything before I sit on 12th grader.

My 11th grader age less than just a month, after this I will leave my "last" happy time on high school. The one who sit on 12th grader should feel satisfy with them self.

I wish I have power to be health everyday, haha

A letter

Theme: Becoming a 12 grader

This is a letter intended to the one on March 2014 later from the one on May 2013. 

Have a nice read! :)

Life is Love Others

Theme: Friendship

After you read my article about “Love in Friendship”, you should read this also. It continues ‘till the end of my article.

Now, I will tell you about the friendship in novel entitle “Wonder Girls” by Jillian Brooks. Along I read this book, I am happy and suddenly I cried at the end.

Wonder girls are children’s book series consisting of eight volumes written by Jillian Brooks. I have read this book when I was Junior High School grade 7^th.

The first volume is “The New Girl”. The story is about Traci McClintic has just moved to wonder Lake with her family.  Mother who is a music schoolteacher, father who is a doctor works at a new clinic in Wonder Lake and her older brother, Dave. Now she's a new girl and has to find a way to make new friends at a new middle school, and face new challenges. A year older than she is, Traci is looking forward to seeing Felicia, her summer friend, and meets Amanda and they become friends but Arielle seems mean and selfish, but she is not, when Felicia starts hanging out with Arielle and seems to be closer to her, Traci doesn't know how to deal. It’s about a girl who moves to a new place and has to cope with making new friends and having a mother as her homeroom teacher. This becomes a struggle after she accidentally injures the most popular girl, Arielle, during soccer practice.  But despite the odds, she's determined to make it wonderful!

Second is “Team Player”. It’s about Arielle's going to prove that she isn't selfish-and maybe meet her fave singer as well. But no way is she doing this just for herself!




Third is “Troublemaker”. It’s about Felicia doesn't like it that her dad is dating. It's weird! It's causing tension among her friends. If this keeps up, they won't be talking to each other at all! Can they fix things? Or is their friendship over?


Fourth is "And The Winner Is...".


Fifth is “Perfect Harmony”. 


Sixth is “The Makeover”. 


Seventh is “Birthday Blues”. It’s Felicia’s feeling that she can't believe that she is finally turning twelve. She is excited because her three best friends are coming to her party.


Eighth is”Growing Pains”. It’s about Amanda. She is devastated when she learns that the school board may cut funding for the art department. While encouraging the school board to change their minds, Amanda fights with her friends about how the money should be use.

There are four best friends in the series:

• Amanda: Begins going out with Traci's brother Dave in "Growing Pains."
• Felicia: She doesn't like fighting or getting involved. Father runs an animal shelter and mother owns a bakery.
• Arielle: She is popular. Stubborn, always needs to get her way, selfish but sometimes opens up a little.
• Traci: her character on the story was seeing on her eyes. She moves from South Carolina with her brother Dave and her mother, and her father.

Actually, this is a cool book. The actors are so cool. I love Traci.  She is so awesome, Arielle is somewhat snobby, Felicia is quiet and Amanda is smart enjoy! They fulfill each other everyday, although they have so many problems to face. They become a real best friends since each of them realize their falls.

If I look at my real life, I have close friends like them; I called them “SSB”. Don’t force me to say what is the acronym, it’s rather disgusting but unique for me. SSB is consists of some of my classmate, XI Science 6. I think we are rather close each other and we have same feeling at that time, we share our problems, take photos together, until that day come. We buy bracelet on a shop with Rp. 5.000,- to make sure that we are really “SSB”. So funny! What a stupid thing! Our story is such a varieties, that’s why I wanna share to you all about my relation with them! I love them.

Thanks for all your care, SSB. I love you as always.

Like us: When we wear our bracelet

one of the cover of Wonder Girl's novel series

It;s us: SSB

Written by:

Aprilia Tiyan Fatmawati

XI Science 6 / 05

Rhino

Love in friendship

Theme: Friendship

I love to tell about this topic. Friendship is one of the best theme that I eager to explore.

This is the cover of the novel

I ever read for some books about friendship. The tittles are 5 cm, wonder girls, Ai, etc. 5 cm is novel written by Donny Dhirgantoro. Ai is novel written by Winna Efendi. Wonder girls are novel written by Jillian Brooks. I will tell about 5 cm first. So, let us start!

5 cm is a novel contains about hundred pages. The story is about 5 person who has good relationship. We have known them as best friends. They are Genta, Riani, Zafran, Arial and Ian. All five have different properties different. Genta is considers as the leader and the leader of their group. Genta is trusted person for his best friends. But, Genta himself quietly put feelings on Riani. They were try to far apart for 3 months to feel how the meaning of missing. That is the problem! After 3 months, they meet in railway station. Then, they go to the Semeru or Mahameru Mount, which is located in Malang region. There they had their adventure with all of struggle and face the difficulties to get the peak. On the journey, they are together and help each other. Then I get some point on their friendship.

First: 5 cm is about not ever give up.
Well maybe that's the meaning of the contents of this novel never give up. Believe in ourselves if we could. Let your beliefs, 5 centimeters hang floating in front of you, and after that you need to just walk that will go much further than usual, the hand that will do more than usual, the eyes will stare longer than usual, the neck will be more frequent look up. Struggle that a thousand times harder than steel, the heart has to work harder than usual, and the mouth that will always pray, Believe in 5 centimeters in front of your forehead.

Second: Improve Nationalism

What does the mean? Nationalism is not to be measure by what you say, you watch or you did. Simply to put you at the bottom of your heart about that, however you can not change who you are, where you were born, who your parents, just like you can not change that you were born, lived, ate in Indonesia, homeland motherland and loving way This country is trying to build and protect your way.

Third: Honesty and Friendship
There was a time where there is a misunderstanding and resentment with another friend. Sometimes we would prefer to let her and talked about the nature of evil to others. I could not find in this novel. I love with those principles as if to say, "It's useless if we talk about the ugliness behind him, yet he's also not going to change" so what happens is the heart-to heart conversations resolve all misunderstandings. Because it was a lesson for me and for other readers are advantages and disadvantages take your friends, if there's something you do not like straight talk better in each one, though sometimes it's difficult for both parties.

Fourth: Love Story
The author describes the five character's love story without compromising the essence / meaning of friendship as it does further highlight novel about friendship than romance. How did it end up that destiny cannot be in force. If like that, it will not mate anywhere.

Fifth: inviting adventurous
A trip from Jakarta to the poor to climb the highest peak on the island of Java, "Mahameru". A journey that is full of faith, dreams, ideals, and love.

Then, If I connect it to my real relationship to my close friend, Sista. I have the answer. Our relationship is like fire and water. Actually, we never have the similarities at all, but we have so many differences. That’s why I call it fire and water. However, each of us can control us. For example, If I lazy to study, she invite me to study together to make me read a book at least. Nah, from that I can learn that we actually can help each other in every part of our life. Then if we loyal to them, we will get good feedback and we can get their love, that’s what I call “Love in friendship”.

You love shoes and I love cat so much

It's like us: April and Sista

I love this quote; actually, it reminds me about her. Thanks for everything, Sista.

Written by:

Aprilia Tiyan Fatmawati

XI Science 6 / 05

Rhino

 

This is me

I just wanna share my own story.

Actually, I never have best friend on my life until now. I have so many friends, but I have few close friends (based on me). For me, close friends is enough. They could gimme spirit. yup, they were so great! They are Devira, Amalia/Amel, Echi, Sista, Zaid, Zahra, and HIlda. My very close friends are Sista, Devira, Hilda, and Amel. I do really love them, I don't know why, they could cheer me up. :)

Then, I have my story about my roommate, A.2.6.

I have Wening, Afifatuz, Mbak Watik, Mbak Tete, Mbak Nuning, and the last Tasya.

But my old roommate on A.2.6 were Wening (again), Mbak Watik, Mbak Tete, Mbak Nuning, Mbak Lisa, Mbak Fithri, and Mbak Yana. 3 of them were already graduate from this SHS. T.T

I love everything on my dormitory. The scenery is always so great. I always thankful to Almighty God because of it blesses. :)

Okay, This is my simple story. I will continue on the next time. Bye bye.

ATF.SR

What am I looking for in 2013 and the next year?

Theme: 2013

In 2013, I have a lot of destiny. One of them is my university and my faculty. In this year, I am going to choose my own destiny.

Okay, my struggle will on fire starts from right now on. It must!

The first I came to this snake’s year, I’m going to let my brain think what I need to get, what I need to do, and what I need to hold.

The first one is what I need to get is I have to get good score at my XI grade at all subject. Not only have that, but also good organization inside or outside schooled hours to support my academic and non-academic score. For example, I wanna be a doctor (amiin), I need to get good score in this year to get SNMPTN on “undangan” way or on written way also never mind. To support that, I need to make good relationships on every single step. I have to plan this since January, this month.

Then, I need to study everyday hardly. Whatever I am, whenever I am, and wherever I am. If I wanna be a trusted doctor and great business woman, I should learn how to be a truly good speaker, good on relationship, careful, patient etc.  That’s the way that I have to walk before.

Therefore, I need to hold on my dream to make it true. I need to hold on my good score and make them better. Once, I need to pray to my Almighty God to get it has blesses.  I also remember with my parents and my elder sister.

My way will continue at Gadjah Mada University (UGM) on doctor faculty. Amiin. Okay, starts from right now on, I make my dream 5 cm in front of me and get them with my beloved family and friends on year 2020! Let us see, amiin. I hope as always.

 

Calender of 2013

Written By:

Aprilia Tiyan Fatmawati

XI SCIENCE 6 / 05

RHINO